give me a tool
a one-use-and-it’s-cracked utensil
to break down the makeup
of this heart and these feelings.
I’ve lived in this body for so long now
my internal counterpart interacts but
never sits too long to get to know, really
just download these updates of those
random sentiments
my heart and mind have always been separate.
I ought to investigate you by now
I’ll try knocking if you’ll answer,
and I’ll ask maybe 30 questions
but heart and mind have always been separate.
I’ve tried to decipher you
but when did I learn a second language?
I can’t fake the fact that I’ve barely practiced
because the heart and mind have always been separate.
others appear more balanced,
their hearts and their minds in agreement
like they’ve lived another life already
while I struggle and simply throw in a guess
of what my true self is feeling.
emotions come and go,
departments/arrivals always unknown
for my heart and mind have always been separate.

Reagan Fleming